Enough
by Jen Barber
At ten she is a reader.
Borrowed books crammed in backpacks and shoved under car seats and hidden
between bedsheets. She’s allergic to grass but will sit in a field for hours.
The itching less urgent than the need for one more word, one more page, one
more chapter.
At twenty she is a partier.
Nights often stretch until morning around bonfires, on beaches, or in barely
lit basements. Her tired body yearns for more of everything that it ingests.
More cigarettes, more alcohol, more thin white lines and tiny pills to sate the
desire to dull the ache.
At thirty she is a spiritualist.
She’s found yoga, breath work, and sacred texts to be read by candlelight. She
climbs mountains and attends workshops. She’s hungry for universal truths and
meaning. She weeps at the brilliance of sunrise, and swoons at the coos of
babies.
And still she craves more.
More love, more peace, more grace, more sleep.
At forty she shifts gears.
Limitless consumption takes a backseat to the regimentation of restraint. Now
she finds power in abstinence rather than excess. Stripping things down instead
of filling them up.
No gluten, no animal products, no alcohol, no food between the hours of 7p and
11a.
No days without the routines of downward dogs and meditation, tea and
chocolate.
Will these rituals finally bring the liberation and freedom she desires, or
will they bind her in a prison of her own creation?
Will anything ever be enough?
* * * * *
Jen Barber is a lover of words, of people, of the natural world. She has always
been moved by the subtleties and complexities observed in life. She is drawn to
what exists beneath the surface of things and is awed and humbled by what she
discovers there. Through poetry, Jen hopes to share the essence of how she
experiences the world with others.
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