One Day at a Time
by Tzivia Gover
The first time I saw her
10 days after her son
who was secretly no longer
(let that fractured sentence stand for itself)
and before I could choose words
to say and not to say
whether to hug
her body collapsed
into me and my arms
surrounded her dead weight
and held on “been a long time”
“meaning to call but”
“if there’s anything --”
my daughter’s ringtone pulsing
interruption I fought to ignore
the betrayal bouncing at my hip
in the presence of grief
some lives
some children
Back in my car driving
stopped at a light
tap call back
while cooing at a grinning
dog in a bruised Toyota one lane over
when my daughter picked up
I heard her over the speaker
trying to make sense of my giddy
goofiness “but you don’t even like dogs”
I couldn't tell her
here in half-moon darkness
and all the bad news in the world
red light turning green
and the glad-panting dog
not knowing the weight of my fear
and traffic was still then
moving that because she's alive
and as far as I know
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Tzivia Gover is a dreamwork professional, poet, and author. Her
most recent book, Dreaming on the Page: Tap into Your Midnight Mind to
Supercharge Your Writing, combines writing and dreamwork. She
has been published in dozens of journals and anthologies including The
Mom Egg Review, The Naugatuck River Review, and Lilith
Magazine. She teaches, writes, and dreams in western Massachusetts. Learn more at www.thirdhousemoon.com
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